okami_hu | Dreams: shonen-ai and psychological shit.

Sooo, I was in some old building with a few friends, probably some museum, but we started to whine that 'ok, this place is cool, but we need something more scientific than theologic' (I believe we were seeking inspiration for our new RP chars? Granted I've only one priest char, and more scientsts XD)

And then, a movie began (dreams, no logic), about some young guy who was studying psychology/philosophy (yay science) and came up with some new theories and of course, he was mocked by the entire university. There were some great shots about him like he was washing his face and the water drops rolled down on his throat... He kinda looked like a young, bishi Snape.

Some shots more and the bishi Snape is in bed with his roommate. They were not doing anything just snuggling, probably not even because they were into each other, just for the heat, but OMG. Naked guy snuggling. *__*

Then, stuff progresses and some samurai comes into the picture (yay, dream logic), and a group of Japanese, too. There are a few monks, I vaguely recall bonsai and calligraphy... I was watching some Japanese lady showing off her jewelry. Then I did something and they respected it, so they let me closer and they actually showed me the calligraphy, like, how it's done. And I was thinking 'Wow, this is cool, I'd like to learn how this is done,' and I told the Japanese lady I'd like to become a "monk novice" (dreamstuff... more like a strict college, so you can go home only a few times, it's practice, practice, practice, whatever - nothing to do with real monks), to learn calligraphy. Then, my mom showed up and started to bitch that I'm stupid that I want to waste my time with this shit, and I just want to lock myself away from the world and generally gave off the vibe that she doesn't have an ounce of faith in my AGAIN.

And the Japanese lady sat down with a smile and explained that she knows my mom wants only the best for me but I'll surely learn this stuff pretty fast and she was kinda making hints that it could earn me some nice money, too.

But at this point, I was already smashing my head against the tabletop, like 'What the heck am I thinking, I can't even understand Japanese, how am I supposed to draw kanjis and in a short time?' And the Japanese lady was smiling at me and I suppose she wanted to encourage me but that was when I woke up from crying.

Conclusion: even a totally random stranger in my dreams who barely speaks my effing language has more faith in me and my abilities than my mother.

Or me, for that matter. T__T