Another letdown
Jul. 9th, 2011 04:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
okami_huHuman beings generally like to belong. They need interaction and I'm not an exception to that.
So I join RPcomms and forums and chats, and have friends.
For a while.
Got kicked from most of the comms, because I refused to act like a deranged seven years old and say only sweet things (though fuck knows what was so offensive last time, back in January - the mods never tell me, even if I beg).
The chat I belonged to, and where the ppl had nothing against me, died. Rinzler haven't came around for three weeks now, after another three weeks of hiatus, and I kept on missing him so much that the emotional energy burned itself and now I don't even miss him, it's just some resigned sadness remaining. Still going to send him the trinkets I made for him. Unless I find out that he died in the meantime or something. o_o
Also miss that bastard CLU. Now I'll never get to know if he caught the hints in the Andersen tales.
US friends fell from the face of the Earth. Nookie is the one I mourn for the most, because we had EPIC times and made epic stories. They were rec'd on 4chan, along with those I did with Zeldamaster. I consider this an achievement. (But we had so much more planned.)
I actually hope that Tenny's still alive.
And the two friends I'm currently writing another epic tale with...? They're busy and tired, and have families to talk to and things to do. Guess it's hard to keep up with me.
I should probs go back to the RPchat. Last time, I had about ten offers. They all turned out to be dead ends, because the guys were not able to match my level in imagination and literacy. And next week's morning shift, when I won't even be around for other timezones.
It's not that I'm bored, because I have Aywas, and the commissions with it, and my pixel contests - but I want to do epic RPs by the bucketload, like I used to. My last options are this Tron RPer (And we're already exhausting the things we could do), and Kefka. And I stopped talking to her _again_ because I was way too deep into the Tron fandom. But the Ronin muses are rousing and it was a pretty effing cool vampire story we did back then... Not to mention the loli and the tentacle monster.
Guess all I can do is hope and try.
PS: Stop pitying me. These are facts, not a cry for attention.
So I join RPcomms and forums and chats, and have friends.
For a while.
Got kicked from most of the comms, because I refused to act like a deranged seven years old and say only sweet things (though fuck knows what was so offensive last time, back in January - the mods never tell me, even if I beg).
The chat I belonged to, and where the ppl had nothing against me, died. Rinzler haven't came around for three weeks now, after another three weeks of hiatus, and I kept on missing him so much that the emotional energy burned itself and now I don't even miss him, it's just some resigned sadness remaining. Still going to send him the trinkets I made for him. Unless I find out that he died in the meantime or something. o_o
Also miss that bastard CLU. Now I'll never get to know if he caught the hints in the Andersen tales.
US friends fell from the face of the Earth. Nookie is the one I mourn for the most, because we had EPIC times and made epic stories. They were rec'd on 4chan, along with those I did with Zeldamaster. I consider this an achievement. (But we had so much more planned.)
I actually hope that Tenny's still alive.
And the two friends I'm currently writing another epic tale with...? They're busy and tired, and have families to talk to and things to do. Guess it's hard to keep up with me.
I should probs go back to the RPchat. Last time, I had about ten offers. They all turned out to be dead ends, because the guys were not able to match my level in imagination and literacy. And next week's morning shift, when I won't even be around for other timezones.
It's not that I'm bored, because I have Aywas, and the commissions with it, and my pixel contests - but I want to do epic RPs by the bucketload, like I used to. My last options are this Tron RPer (And we're already exhausting the things we could do), and Kefka. And I stopped talking to her _again_ because I was way too deep into the Tron fandom. But the Ronin muses are rousing and it was a pretty effing cool vampire story we did back then... Not to mention the loli and the tentacle monster.
Guess all I can do is hope and try.
PS: Stop pitying me. These are facts, not a cry for attention.
